Im not real sure were to begin so ill just start dropping my thoughts starting from yesterday.

Names are changed to protect identities.

 So yesterday my girlfriend who we will refer to as rose asked me to do some things before i went to bed one of which shes been asking me to do for quite a while. I did most of it but i forgot to put cans back in her fridge for the ones i took out. She wasnt pleased because i frequently forget to do things that she asks me to do. I dont know why i forget i love her and care about her and yet i forget to do things.

I need to stop being so hard on myself. I apologize for all thing i screw up as well im beginning to think i say im sorry too much. I just dont know what else to say when i mess up.

Im just trying to be the best boyfriend and future husband i can and sometimes it seems i let her down more then i should.

On the plus side i get to see my son hal. Hes almost 4 and hes so full of energy. He loves rose a lot and she loves him too so it will work well as mine and roses relationship grows. I cant wait to see how our relationship grows and see were it progresses. Its exciting for me to think about.

Also let me be clear i love doing things for her and she loves doing things for me. We have a good relationship and i love it just as much as she does i just need to figure out how to improve myself. I Just love her so much is all she just so amazing

Thats it for now